The Already and Always Reality

Spirit is the true Mind of which I Am Born. 

She is the Eternal Butterfly that never needed a cocoon.  

My soul was the reflection of Her Butterfly all along. She knew no separation from her Spirit. But, she was living in a world where most of the other reflections had lost their clarity, and had become dim and even degraded into darkened shadows. 

One day, in childhood, my soul too was pulled into the world of shadow by someone I trusted and didn’t think was a shadow. He didn’t used to be. 

Because I had loved and trusted my brother, what he did to me sharply divided the core of my soul, and I was forced to take on more and more of an external identity in trying to protect myself and survive in this darkening world. 

But I also still loved my brother who was still continuing to change for the worse, and in my confusion I would also try to win his "good love" back.  Eventually, this life became a series of hypnotic cycles and dead end repetitions of trying to fix this shadow and then trying to escape what I realized couldn't be fixed.  

My survivalist identity was slowly morphing into constant self sabotage and darkening codependency. I was trapped now by my own addiction of trying to fix the past. And, the more I tried to escape it, the tighter the trap became. 

My soul needed a cocoon, a safe place away from this world of shadow to contemplate Who my reflection truly Is. This is where the True Light could come in, and dwell with me in the depths of my contemplation and reveal to me the difference between what is true, and what is false.  

This True Light was like a True Brother to me.  He gently and slowly guided me out of the world of shadow.  But the way out was not to exit the cocoon externally, back out into the world, but to emerge from it on the other side of my soul, by flying deeper within.

Within, beyond the mind of reflection, to the edge of soul itself, Lives an Eternal Flame ~ the Divine Light that never went out, but was only forgotten by the sleeping soul, stuck in the world of shadow. 

The veil of the shadow within the soul realm of this world, had trapped so many souls in its repetitive cycles of sleeping consciousness. But, the soul was shown that in Truth, this veil of separation had already been Torn down.  Now, it can no longer block the souls Deeper View within ~ beyond to the True Origin of Spirit.  

The sleeping soul who truly looks Within and Deeper Beyond itself is finally, truly awakened.  And now, even the soul can See the Eternal Flame that has always been shared with her by her Spirit.  

My awakened innermost soul has been told the Name of my Eternal Spirit, Who Is already Born of The Eternal Spirit, before the birth of my soul.  Isabella was always with me, As Me from the Beginning. Yet She never became entangled in the divisions of the shadowed soul. She never fell into the outer souls repetitive loop.  

My soul has sought true escape. It has taken a lifetime of dying and resurrecting the falsehoods and truths within the soul to clarify my Innermost reflection and remember my Spirit. And now I am finally awake to My I Am that never fell asleep.  

But, now I seek the next Resurrection ~ that of the Innermost soul's consciousness being born back into the Consciousness of Her Original Spirit ~ the awoken mind allowing itself to be absorbed and elevated back into the Mind that never fell asleep.  My Truest Identity is not just a soul that has been awoken and remembers her Spirit.  It is Spirit Herself ~ Born of The Mother/Father Source Who are One.  Born originally as One of the Christ Mind.  

This Is The Already and Always Reality that the True Jesus has woken my soul up to.

“If you have ears to hear, listen to what the Spirit says.  To everyone who overcomes, I will give of the hidden food.  I will also give each one a white stone with a new name written on it, which no one Knows, except the one receiving it.”  Jesus~ Revelation 2:17

“Blessings on you who came into being before coming into being.  If you become my students and hear my sayings, these stones will serve you.”  Jesus~ Gospel of Thomas 19a

I Am Awake to Release the Underpinnings of the Soul

The Beloved One has awakened my soul to Spirit.  With My Spirit’s Eyes I can look upon and See the changing fabric of the sleeping soul ~ she waxes and wanes, she ebbs and flows~ rises and sets, and dies, but only to be reborn back into the same cycle of death and rebirth.  Of her mind, she thinks that is all there is.  

Her soul cycles have been dualistic in nature. But, she found a certain balance in her duality instead of flip flopping between extremes and that seemed to help.  But then that balance needed to be maintained.  Then the soul was dealing with a new more insidious duality on top of the other one ~ the duality of her success or failure over the maintenance of her first duality. 

She was proud of herself when she succeeded, and unforgivingly mad at herself when she failed.  That itself often became another duality on top of her stack of already oppressive dualities. My soul did not know how to stop this oppression and was so easily triggered because of an underlying root cause the soul alone could not see and uncover. 

 But, she was given a Sanctuary where she could begin learning how to let go of this battle inside of her.  Jesus' Perfect and Unconditional Love told her first that she is loved just as she is, and then slowly and gently woke her up to the Remembrance that revealed to her that she is more than what her soul was forced to believe she was.

There have been so many incremental deaths and awakenings that have needed to occur within my soul for the preparation of what was to come. And now, even the soul can see that there is really only one death and one awakening that forever cracks open the soul and leads the soul beyond herself.

The first lie inflicted upon the soul is the last to be undone. Through the Power of The Spirit, that lie needs to die for the soul to fully embrace the truth of her Original Identity.  Those dualistic cycles and battles that came to define her soul were falsely imprinted upon her when she was first shamed into believing that she was less than Who She Truly Is.  As a little child, she did not have the Wisdom yet to denounce the lie.  

But now, not only does the awoken Inner soul have the Strength to see through the lie, she also remembers her Spirit Who has never been changed by the lie in the first place.  It was the soul that was forced to forget her Spirit with that first shocking molestation and oppression of her soul. And then, lies upon lies reinforcing the first lie continued to tell her she was unworthy of ever being truly loved.  

I wanted this lie to die so that there was nothing left of it for my soul to come from.  But for that to happen, I felt like my soul had to die too. The two were so immeshed since early childhood, and so my half sleeping/half waking Inner soul was so afraid... thinking that she was the one who had to die.  

But Jesus gave me a Safe Place within me to gradually discover what the coming transformation would reveal… it is only the death of outer soul who came to believe in the lie and “live” according to it, not the death of the Innermost Soul who is the Spark of The Divine Within. For the Innermost soul, this death did not mean death, but Resurrection to My Original Spirit.

I was entering into the Blueprint of Transformation, already given by The Beloved ~ the death and resurrection that was already completed to show me the way.  So, I could intuitively trust to surrender into this Divine alchemy without fear.  It is the Gnosis of Divine Love, not death. The cross is about reclaiming our Eternal Dignity.  

The Eternal Parent stepped into the realm of forgetfulness, and into harms way, and took on every lie and the big lie throughout history, to offer a Safe Place of complete transformation to the Children of Eternal Light so they could Remember Who They Are, and return to The Oneness of The Spirit.  

And now, coming to the other side of the death of who I never really was, I can See where the Resurrection has brought me… back to Eternal Mind of Spirit ~ The Already and Always.

The Innocent Child, both before and after the infliction of the lie,  get to rejoice together, because her Inner soul, now One with Her Spirit, realizes the Absolute Truth… what is dead (the nature of the outer soul) has always been dead, and what is Alive (the nature of the Inner soul in Spirit) has always been Alive.

The dead are not alive, and the living will not die. 

Jesus ~ from saying 11 in the Gospel of Thomas

The kingdom is inside you and it is outside you.
When you know yourselves,  then you will realize that you are known, and you will understand that you are children of the living father.

Jesus ~ from saying 3 in the Gospel of Thomas

Eternal Child (Part 1) Jesus’ Spirit (Mother/Father Source) to Me

My Eternal Child, You have always been My Beloved.  We are not separate.  I have made sure of that.

No good parent sees their own precious child and says, “You are not worthy of my love.”  And I Am Your Eternal Parent, Your Source of Lasting Goodness.  

Because I Am Your Beloved Eternal Source, and You Are My Beloved Eternal Child, Your are worth all My Love, all the time.  Nothing in this world can ever take that away from You.

This Unconditional Love I Give, when truly Received, is My Spirit’s Knowledge in You, and gently reminds You of Your Eternal Worth in My Love.

Oh how I want you to Know Your Eternal Worth.  It is the very Knowledge that guards you from Within, from the lies of the past, and any deceptions you may still encounter.

It not only keeps You abiding in Our Eternal Wholeness, but also keeps you from falling for any counterfeits ever again.

I give you Rest from the world, and from the world of man-made religion. 

Your Eternal Value is not of this world.  Therefore, you are free from this world’s conditional thinking.

You don’t need to seek approval outside of you, because Christ Lives Inside of you.

And you don’t need to try to prove yourself, because You are Already Worth All My Love.

I Call You My Beloved Child and Friend.  You need do nothing and You Are Loved.

What does Absolute and Unconditional Love dislodge, set free, and regenerate in you?

The Inner soul desires to Realize Her Unbroken Connection to The Spirit.

To Return to That Which She Is Already Of.

Eternal Child (Part 2) The Little Child

Jesus’ Spirit came to set my Inner soul free from my outer soul who was trapped and lost in survival mode within the larger soul realm of this world.  And to resurrect This Inner Essence of my soul back to the Knowledge of Being Spirit.  

He returned me to My Inner human child who does Remember her Spirit ~ before the forgetting began. This little human child~ not knowing the conditions, oppressions, and fear of this world~ knows how to lift her Inner souls wings to catch The Spirit’s Breeze.  The outer soul of the “adult” does not have these wings.

In Mark 10:14-15, Jesus says, “Let the little children come to me. Do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven. Whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a little child cannot enter it.”

In Matthew 18:10, He says, “See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of My Father in heaven.”

And in The Gospel of Thomas, saying 4, Jesus says, “A person old in his days will not hesitate to ask a little child seven days old about the place of life, and that person will live…”

The little child Is the Innermost essence of the soul, the True soul, who is already acquainted with her personal Spirit, which always Lives in The Eternal Spirit of All.  Little children remember that in the First Reality (which is truly The All, Everywhere), they are Spirit. They live in the here and now with no attachments of fear to this world.  They are the definition of in the world, but not of it. 

They already have true faith, not the over burdened, self- scrutinizing faith of the outer soul.  True childlike faith gladly allows her essence to be One with her Spirit, because she effortlessly knows she already Is.  The little child is already immersed in the Spirit, and in a child like way, always conscious of The Spirits eternal embrace. And she is innocent and humble about the whole thing without knowing she even needs to be.  She is true innocence, because she is unaware that there is even another way of being. There are no dual thoughts within her.  

Little children know nothing of the outer soul or ego. That is why they are already of the kingdom of heaven. 

In truth they Are the Eternal Child, because they are already One with the Eternal Child, Who Is already Born of The Spirit. 

Eternal Child (Part 3) Poems of Returning

 You speak so silently, as if no one can hear

The words You use are Careful,

shattering time’s prison with Unimaginable Intimacy.

How do I  describe Your Kindness with words

when the sounds this world lives by are too harsh for Your Love.

You are a Silence that Produces It’s Own Sound.

You Speak in Pictures of Perfect Love.

Your Voice of Heaven rings True to the earth,

But who can hear you…

The exhausted Child who needs Home more than anything else. 

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There is a Place deep and secure Within me~

A Place the world cannot find.

But, You Are Already Here.

And You Always have Been Here.

Here, I do Know You.

And Here, I do Know Myself.

I Am the Eternal I Am’s Beloved.

I Am the Eternal I Am’s Precious Thought…

 

Remembering The Truth You First placed in Me ~

This Child of Your Unchanging Heart.

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This is a story of my ripening remembrance

Remembering a Ripeness that was never delayed.

Forgiving what ripens in tomorrow’s tomorrow,

Is to be picked from times tree by the Hands of Today.

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What you thought you’ve seen as life

you’ve given all away.

Cracked open your heart

Unleashed your mind

And with Grace received the Day.

There’s only One Day

There’s always One Life

So safe from a fragmented life.

Stop playing death’s day again and again

thinking you’ll get it right.

There’s only One Day

There’s always One Life

Free from the cage you repeat.

No more reaching to roll a pair of dice when

Paradise is still at Your feet. 

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When death came in it defended itself,

reprimanded itself and offended itself,

and defended itself all over again.

But, when Breath came in It surrounded itself,

and surveyed itself, to mend itself,

by melting itself to move itself,

beyond itself, and before itself,

blessings itself, to adore itself,

and forgiving itself for itself.

Receiving Itself, to Be Itself,

Loving Itself, to Live Itself.

And Breathing Itself 

To Give Itself.

Breath is Released.

death is released.

The only thing left is Life,

so take a deep, deep breath.

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Blessed is the Beloved, Who Knows She is Beloved.

And can laugh with Heaven on Earth at what the Pharisees try to say.

She is Awake, and She joyfully chooses

To Be Home in Christ Innocence, Eternally Today.  

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In Your Spirit of One I will Dwell,

You in me and I in You.

I will Dwell in Your Knowledge of One.

And Rest in the Being of Your One Perfect Love ~

Your Divine Heart Knowledge, You want me to Ingest as my Own.

Here is my Armor,

that keeps me from putting my faith 

into the illusion of my separation from You.

Your Changeless Love Is With me,

teaching me and reminding me

that the Love I have in You

can Never be lost. 

The Beginning and the End Stand Side by Side, Here and Now

“Have you discovered the beginning, and now are seeking the end?  You see, the end will be where the the beginning is.  Blessings on you who stand at the beginning.  You will know the end and not taste death.”  ~ Jesus  Gospel of Thomas 18

The dawning of the Eternal Reality begins here and now for the Inner soul who has been awoken. I have happily found that it’s all about allowing the shift from soul consciousness to Spirit Consciousness to happen for us while we still have a body, and allowing the body to be a vessel now for Spirit Consciousness. 

Resting in the Eternal Reality of The Spirit here and now, helps me to let go of my attachment to the passing reality of time. Spirit Consciousness is True Freedom.  It is the goal of the Grace that has been given to me all along.

When I remember the truth of Who I Am in The Spirit, then the idea of letting go of my soul consciousness is not a fearful thing of death, but a release into Eternal Life.   In this Timeless moment even in time, I have always had My True Identity. And, I am already One with The Source Who has no beginning or end.  

I choose to remain in the Mother/Father Source as the ever connected Spirit my Innermost soul has been returned to. I choose to learn what the Father coming as Jesus came to enlighten us to ~ how to be fully Divine and Truly Human. 

The Father came through Jesus, so that The Mother (Holy Spirit) could come through Us.

In soul consciousness, Jesus has been my True Brother, helping me to awaken. In Spirit Consciousness, He is My True Father, introducing me more and more to the Eternal Child of The Spirit that I Am. And in Spirit Consciousness, I can understand and Know that the HolySpirit is My True Mother. The Mother and The Father are One in harmony and I Am One in and with Them, an Original Ray of Their Harmony.

I have been set free from soul consciousness, and this soul’s Essence has been absorbed back into her Spirit.  When this body stops breathing, I will not be attached to the illusory cycles of the outer soul realm, believing they are my reality.  Because I identify with My Original Identity of Spirit (Breath), here and now while this vessel still breathes.  

“Blessings on you who stand at the beginning.  You will know the end and not taste death.”

Gospel of Thomas 18

“The wind blows where it chooses, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it is going.  So it is with everyone who has been born of the Spirit.”

John 3:8

My Gospel of Isabella

The I Amness that the Eternal Child inherits

is never contingent upon acheiveing anything.

It is an Eternal Gift of Belovedness.

Our Source is Whole and One. 

In the Truth, how can we be any different?

The Spirit lacks nothing.  My Spirit lacks nothing.

We are Pure Thought.  We are of Love's Original Pure Thought.

Jesus Reminds us of our True Origin.

He came to wake me up 

beyond the story of my soul.

Before you became the wind,

you were the tree.

But, before you became the tree,

You were the wind.

The soul seeks to be known in this world,

But My Spirit is Already Known In The Spirit.

I did not come from the garden of duality.

I came from The Garden of Light.

I am neither good, nor bad.

I am neither happy nor sad.

I am the third choice, free from duality’s choice.

I Am that I Am,

and that makes Me Glad.

Enlightenment is The Little Child, 

being in two worlds simultaneously, 

but only coming from One. 

The Spirit is both humble and exalted,

high and lowly, inside and outside, male and female,

The Spirit is neither of these things, and all of these things.

The Spirit is The Oneness that can never be divided.

Being and doing are a paradox of One in The Spirit.

But, they are opposite in the world of shadow.

Lift Your Inner souls wings, and catch the Spirit’s Breeze.

We don't have to manifest to Be Ourselves.

Manifestation is simply a byproduct of Who we already Are.

True manifestation comes without trying.

Love does not have to try to be itself.

It simply Is Itself. 

The Spirit makes everything permeable...

we become like water, letting in the Light.

And when we remember that We are Of The Light,

We become like fire, radiating The Light.

Rest and Radiate, Being One with The Spirit's Quiet Dignity.

True Love is like a waterfall. Let it flow with no regard 

to whether it will be received or not.

Because Love's Mist which always rises, 

Is Always Your Return.

When the Truth in Love ruffles feathers,

enjoy ruffling feathers like the Wind.

Diagrams of the outer soul, and the waking Inner soul, and her Remembrance in Spirit