Spirit is the true Mind of which I Am Born.
She is the Eternal Butterfly that never needed a cocoon.
My soul was the reflection of Her Butterfly all along. She knew no separation from her Spirit. But, she was living in a world where most of the other reflections had lost their clarity, and had become dim and even degraded into darkened shadows.
One day, in childhood, my soul too was pulled into the world of shadow by someone I trusted and didn’t think was a shadow. He didn’t used to be.
Because I had loved and trusted my brother, what he did to me sharply divided the core of my soul, and I was forced to take on more and more of an external identity in trying to protect myself and survive in this darkening world.
But I also still loved my brother who was still continuing to change for the worse, and in my confusion I would also try to win his "good love" back. Eventually, this life became a series of hypnotic cycles and dead end repetitions of trying to fix this shadow and then trying to escape what I realized couldn't be fixed.
My survivalist identity was slowly morphing into constant self sabotage and darkening codependency. I was trapped now by my own addiction of trying to fix the past. And, the more I tried to escape it, the tighter the trap became.
My soul needed a cocoon, a safe place away from this world of shadow to contemplate Who my reflection truly Is. This is where the True Light could come in, and dwell with me in the depths of my contemplation and reveal to me the difference between what is true, and what is false.
This True Light was like a True Brother to me. He gently and slowly guided me out of the world of shadow. But the way out was not to exit the cocoon externally, back out into the world, but to emerge from it on the other side of my soul, by flying deeper within.
Within, beyond the mind of reflection, to the edge of soul itself, Lives an Eternal Flame ~ the Divine Light that never went out, but was only forgotten by the sleeping soul, stuck in the world of shadow.
The veil of the shadow within the soul realm of this world, had trapped so many souls in its repetitive cycles of sleeping consciousness. But, the soul was shown that in Truth, this veil of separation had already been Torn down. Now, it can no longer block the souls Deeper View within ~ beyond to the True Origin of Spirit.
The sleeping soul who truly looks Within and Deeper Beyond itself is finally, truly awakened. And now, even the soul can See the Eternal Flame that has always been shared with her by her Spirit.
My awakened innermost soul has been told the Name of my Eternal Spirit, Who Is already Born of The Eternal Spirit, before the birth of my soul. Isabella was always with me, As Me from the Beginning. Yet She never became entangled in the divisions of the shadowed soul. She never fell into the outer souls repetitive loop.
My soul has sought true escape. It has taken a lifetime of dying and resurrecting the falsehoods and truths within the soul to clarify my Innermost reflection and remember my Spirit. And now I am finally awake to My I Am that never fell asleep.
But, now I seek the next Resurrection ~ that of the Innermost soul's consciousness being born back into the Consciousness of Her Original Spirit ~ the awoken mind allowing itself to be absorbed and elevated back into the Mind that never fell asleep. My Truest Identity is not just a soul that has been awoken and remembers her Spirit. It is Spirit Herself ~ Born of The Mother/Father Source Who are One. Born originally as One of the Christ Mind.
This Is The Already and Always Reality that the True Jesus has woken my soul up to.
“If you have ears to hear, listen to what the Spirit says. To everyone who overcomes, I will give of the hidden food. I will also give each one a white stone with a new name written on it, which no one Knows, except the one receiving it.” Jesus~ Revelation 2:17
“Blessings on you who came into being before coming into being. If you become my students and hear my sayings, these stones will serve you.” Jesus~ Gospel of Thomas 19a